My name is Faith McNeil (Hinton). I am majoring in Business Administration with a concentration in Human Resource Management. I think my future career is being a Human Resource Manager, but I think my real dream job is to be writer. However, that doesn’t always pay the bills, and I want to be able to support my family. It would be nice if I could do writing on the side and find a way to make a supplemental living off of it. My personal relationship to writing can only be described as “heavily dependent.” I really enjoy writing to express myself, but I find myself constantly beginning (personal) writing projects without finishing them. I have wanted to write a book my whole life about my experiences with the foster/adoption system and the abuses that came with the experience, but I find it hard to voice my own opinions on paper out of anxiety and fear of what others will say or think. I think I have made up my mind to write anonymously and try to give it a shot again. I don’t have a whole lot of professional experience when it comes to writing. I am only 18 with an Associates Degree so most of my writing has been for school. My first job was at a restaurant, and now I work as a habilitation technician. I do have to fill out charts and write comments for my current job, but I don’t have to write papers or emails.
I exercise my creativity through music typically. I really enjoy writing music and singing it, but my anxiety has been a huge blockade. At one point, I wrote and produced my own music at home. Then, I posted it to SoundCloud, and it actually got fairly popular. It had hundreds of views! I made a YouTube account to post covers, but, eventually, my anxiety overtook my life, and I deleted all the posts or made them private. Another outlet I use to exercise my creativity is writing. I used to use this site called “Ms. Literati” which was a free site you could post on and read other people’s stories. It was a more sophisticated/appropriate version Wattpad. I really miss writing, but I haven’t found a site even moderately close to what I was using. “Ms. Literati” closed the website down for some reason, and my outlet disappeared. I have a really hard time expressing my creativity without letting my anxiety ruin it. I also struggle with having too many thoughts to be able to write clearly. It’s super easy for me to write when I am asked questions or I have something to focus on. It sometimes just takes time for me to pick a topic and stick with it.
My MBTI type was ESTJ (extraverted, sensing, thinking, judging). I feel like it matched me pretty well except for one thing. According to Personality Hacker, “ESTJs can often hold little regard for other people’s problems. This lack of empathy can make them unapproachable and may be barring them from making deeper emotional connections.” I feel like this is fairly inaccurate because I am really sympathetic and empathetic because of some of the experiences I have had in my life where others did not attempt to understand my feelings. I didn’t mind taking the quiz, but I stress a lot when I read questions that are even moderately unclear so I feel like I didn’t take it to the best of my ability. However, it did read my personality pretty well.
My personal goals for the course are to develop my professional writing and to use what I learn to make my personal writing easier to go through with. I want to find my voice, and I think that developing my professional writing could help a lot with that. I am extremely extroverted so COVID-19 has been pretty hard on my mental health because I have asthma so I have had to do a lot of things from home, but Zoom and communicating makes everything feel just a little bit more normal. I look forward to meeting everyone and getting to know you all this semester.